I've been thinking a lot about my personal physical goals and feeling stressed out and frustrated with myself for NEVER accomplishing/reaching my goal!! I've been dieting for as long as I can remember to be exact I believe I first started dieting in 10th grade!!
Soooo after thinking of the 7-8 years of stressing over body image I think I've hit a wall and I'm so tired of caring about "how many calories, fat, sugar, etc something has before I eat it!!" I've done some thinking and looking back on the past I have come to find that I am an EXTREMEST!! Meaning that when I want to lose weight I will lose 10 lbs FAST and than I'm happy=) and content but then I will let LOOSE a LITTLE and give into my sugar addiction and I will gain 15 lbs faster than I had lost the first 10!! Why does my body FLUCTUATE 10 LBS!!!??? It has to be the Tongan in me!!!!! Anyway feeling down in the dumps I can't help but be mad at ANYBODY but myself!!
We have a choice. We can choose to deal with the things we are given in life like for me:
my fab healthy body that likes to fluctuate 10-15 lbs OR we can choose to ignore the fact and be upset and frustrated with the increased numbers on the scale!!!
So the quote above has helped me come up with what has really been going on in my head. I have made some improvements & I can honestly say that I love my body. But the reason why I get so crazy and obsessive over body image is because there is ALWAYS ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT AND I feel that I havent made any "PERMANENT" IMPROVEMENTS!!
I don't know if anyone cares I just know that this is the ONE THING THAT IS CONSTANTLY on my mind and wanted to know if anyone else was feeling the same way && I needed to get it off my chest because I'm driving my poor husband crazy!!!
( && he isn't very sympathetic when it comes to this sort of stuff)
* he loves me & my body regardless but its hard to keep up and talk to him especially when he is just naturally fit and his 6 pack is just staring at me when we're talking about my weight issues!!!
So ladies feel my pain!!
Lets LOVE OURSELVES. OUR BODIES. BUT IF YOU DONT LIKE SOMETHING. CHANGE IT.. . . WITH A SMILE OF COURSE!!!!! =D
